Creative writing

Shattered insides I crumble more each day No words from you, make this all go away Crying in the dark I hear the cries Screams wake me up in the morning those dam neighbors again Yelling every day it never stops in my head Screams, cussing, glass breaking will it ever go away Gun shots heard, dead dog laying in the driveway Tears falling down, I want to just go away Trapped by those who say they care Love, tortured soul, empty and so deprave How can this be the life Jesus wanted for me Darkness falls, yelling, cussing always the same Shattered insides I crumble more each day No words from you, make this all go away written by: Derrick A Jasper Dec 29th 2014

Her hand glides across my chest, I breath Her kiss is gently placed upon my lips, I breath Her finger tips dance on my stomach, I breath She uses her tongue like a magic marker on me, I breath She rubs her cold feet across my legs, I breath She rubs my back like I am clay, I breath She whispers in my ear I love you, I breath She dances on my heart, I breath She holds me in her arms, I breath She kissed me tenderly all over my body, I breath When I woke there was a  note - I am leaving, I breath Written by: Derrick A Jasper December 29th 2014

Parts beaten into my soul They prayed over me loosing control Dipped in the holy waters that's what they did Holy water turned muddy water from all the sin Can she hear me now  Bleeding hearts fallen on the ground Gross neglect of childhood dreams Killing the child inside of me Parts beaten into my soul Then you look at me Disdain in your heart you call me out I turned to walk away this time I stayed Your hate for me grows each and every day Look to your own soul look away Don't be shy now you coward of the day Parts beaten into my soul can't ever go away written by: Derrick A Jasper Dec 21st 2014  

Ambivalence comes inside to rest Sure as fire it builds within Did she say she would be an alley? I am forgetting how to perform as a friend Now the time has come for all the trouble to be left behind Ambivalence remains strong within my core written by: Derrick A Jasper Dec 21st 2014  

Drunken disaster coming through the door Hands bloody from fighting again Face busted up another brawl at the local bar He tells her this time he is done In bed he sleeps and smells of booze She stays there next to him with no where to go He wakes in the morning looking for a bottle again Smelling of booze before he can eat Liquored up breath he tries to give her a kiss He smells of booze and more of death Tonight he doesn't come home She waits till midnight then goes to bed Flashing lights wake her up Another cop car he will be in Tonight there is knocking Something in her feels a sting The man tells her about the shots fired He is dead now liquor and fighting took him away She closes the door and sits down to pray  

Hands tremble not like before Calm he was while smoking during the war Dreams creep in taking love away Screams are heard most every day Can't shake the anger deep within Self deprecating that is the way Longing for death to come Seeking freedom in native tongue Head strong warrior now crumbling inside Into the forest hiding his pride Written by: Derrick A Jasper 12/16/2014  

Dark skies hover over my head Rain pouring down cold filled with dread I beat the drums but my heart beat is dead You run past my sight again and again A fleeting moment is all we had Terrible horrible feelings inside Is he alive or is he dead Breaking my heart into tiny shards he does Speaking not of life any more, an emptiness is felt In my sorrow I cry alone She sits and stares at the night sky hoping against hope Dark skies hover over my head Rain pouring down cold filled with dread written by: Derrick A Jasper 12/16/2014

Dam buzzing over my head Ducking down to the wet ground On my stomach one more time Buzzing sounds all around Crossfire they yell, crossfire lookout He grabs his rifle pulling the trigger Buzzing goes over my head ringing in my ears Crossfire they yell again Now I look over he lay's there dead Crossfire took my friend away I survived the crossfire today December 10th 2014 DAJ

Cowards hiding behind the key board Cowards sitting in the cafe, typing away with their cell phones Cowards texting in the elevator ignoring your existance Cowards driving and talking to an earphone Cowards sitting on the park bench looking down at the note pad screen Cowards laying on the grass reading the latest Kindle book Have we all become cowards on the internet?

Strangers kissing on the train Strangers holding hands seems a bit insane Taken back to his church he was In prayer and solitude just because Nine times ten and ten times nine Who really cares about the daily grime Bring the child to me he yells Dark voices heard such ugly spells Ringing in the new year here we go Christmas past he will never know Chopping heads off for the news Now everyone sleeps right on through Tainted colors we all see Hope they aren't coming for me Gossip pours from the lips around town Gossip tears the barriers down written by: Derrick A Jasper December 8th 2014

Rally cries fading as darkness takes over Colder nights calling a settling to those who march Hands raised high in times of fear We all came together like never before Rain and snow keep us locked inside The streets now glisten from the sorrow we all feel Deeply in the ground now Laid down to rest, if rest is what death is The other creatures take over when we stop flying around They march for their families across black tops filled with death We say we care but we only care about what we care for Difference is not loved, it is killed, tortured and locked away We celebrate our lives but don't help others when they cry foul No one really pays the price, for death has it ending We don't accept the law, we want changes now Times are changing with or without us we must all crawl Little walkers trying to understand the voices chanting in the night Millionaires studying the marchers from a far Huddling up together with drinks in hand how clever th...

The air flows from my chest I cry out, I can't breath I lay upon the concrete now lifeless Passers by video tape my death No one comes to my aide We are afraid, he screams Weeping can be heard in the back ground Is he dead they say, is he dead My lifeless body they take away Cut open to find the truth Truth out no one wants to hear I died for all of you to get up and cheer written by: Derrick A Jasper

Bite me he yells from the counter, angering the customers Shut the f -up you load mouth p----y another screams Who the hell do you think you are; leaving me this way today Oh father, why did you not teach me how to pray See the darkness befalling onto their heads First come, first dead, first run away Why are we here, she screamed at him Don't you care, they yelled right back See her face the tears you caused He laughs at everyone and sees no applause Who told you I would be here Had enough of you last time my dear Spank me if you must Yell at me once every day, this is how you love How is this, she never hurt inside Wicked adopted mother her brew was hate and fear Come out come out won't you my dear Pray to the Lord you foolish child Dipped in the water reborn again Evil rising up to calm the hate Even now we try to escape Her words are there every day we live on Mean old woman from time gone by Seek the head of the man in the tre...

Addiction the doctor says Words piercing the very soul  Ever been an addict he asked, with a gleam in his eye Trickster and trumpeter roars in the dark behind the lies Addiction or addict  they call the difference in you and I Addicts cry wolfsbane tortured the soul Addiction experts who never were addicted to anything but books and work I am an addict the doctor claims as he sees the patient for the first time Who the hell does he think he is, telling me I am an addict he cries Pills given, pills taken, bleeding from the gut and he says, I'm an addict Addiction the doctors writes, addiction writes away the hope for a cure Addicts cry; I am not an addict, when they just need to get high Addiction she says, that's what's wrong with you Oh her words I scoff at, but could this be true The doctor comes with paper in hand Sign the agreement we'll get the pills just for you Addiction begins, a signature obtained to pee in a cup when seen Add...

She tosses little verbal darts at me Darts flying threw the air striking my heart at will Seeing these tiny invaders makes the words you speak come from hell Tiny darts she tosses across the room filled with anger and hate She blows a kiss it has been laced with tiny darts intent on the kill These nasty words she spews from her mouth are words filled with tiny darts She robbed my heart away from me and killed the child inside Tiny darts filled with torture she knew how to devastate From the time we woke till we slept tiny darts filled the air She is dead now long ago tiny darts still run around in my head Tiny darts killing the man I want to be she broke the insides of me written by: Derrick A Jasper

Stoked he tells us again I am stoked he yells You are stoked we ask boldly Yes, stoked I have a new job Another job we say Yes a new job How many jobs has that been this year Stoked he must be just to be employed Christmas eve. written by: Derrick A Jasper

Look away because I am old now Turned down for employment due to age discrimination Supervisors my child's age Older women seeking younger men I am too old for them Younger women seeking older men, I haven't got the money they want Possible friends ask my age, then never call me again Neighbors won't speak to us - we are to old for them Aged is a dirty world in the land of the free Look away because I am too old now Turned down for employment due to age discrimination How did I get here and why do I stay Look away because I am too old now

Her spirit haunts me as I walk back in the memory Feeling lost in the longing of the past, why Why do you love the dead so long, she said Who comes into this sorrow alone None of us shall live forever I traveled back in time to see her face Now blurred from time she laughs at me Tears drip from my eyes I hear the words spoken, men don't cry The story goes on and on year after year Her spirit haunts me as I walk back in the memory written by: Derrick A Jasper